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So I REALLY suck at posting here, huh? I won't make a new promise about starting to post regularly, because I've now realized that doing that, is like making a death promise. So what I will say, is: I won't post anymore! That should make me start posting, right? Don't get your hopes to high though..

I broke up with my boyfriend.. Mmh, probably for the best, but yeah.. I guess that's just never fun. I've made up with that girl I talked about and we spend almost every night, talking about anything and everything. Not good for my school, where my absence is getting higher and higher. So I'm going to talk with my teacher on Tuesday, to work some kind of plan out. It's kinda important that I finish my 10th grade, because without it, I can't get in at HF.

But to a more current update (I can imagine that this summarizing thing, could be quite boring). I'm on a home visit at my parents. I should have been out drinking tonight, but my mum had a breakdown about me not seeing them enough, so I canceled and stayed home watching "Bingo Banko" - some Danish Bingo television program - with them. Which is very big of me, taking that I really HATE Bingo Banko!
The weirdest part about being home is that I don't feel like I'm home, at all. It's like I'm on visit at a friend. A very dear friend, though - but still, just a friend. I feel like I need to ask every time I do something. "Can I watch television?", "Is it okay to play loud music?", "Can I take an apple?" and all other kind of things... 
But it's okay. I'm with my parents and even though I can't stand being with them for very long, I'm still with them now and that is what matters!


I think I will find a blogchallenge - maybe that will help me start posting. So even though I'm ending my post now, you will probably hear from me in just a minute (: Cya

Tinychat

Btw... I spent most of my time on this site Tinychat. My room is called http://tinychat.com/eskimona
Feel free to join us (:

EDIT: our tinychat got closed.. so the new one is called www.tinychat.com/theeskies

Comeback

So I thought I would start blogging again. And this time be a little less emow. Lol. Anyway.... Many things have happend since last time I wrote:
1. I got a boyfriend.
2. The girl I made out with hates me.
3. I quitted sleeping at night and have basically just fucked up my school rythm.
4. I went skiing in Norway with Egholt and sucked at it.
5. Then I went to Club La Santa and got freckles. Lol.
6. I smoked weed for the first time yesterday. Or that's actually not true, it was the second time, but I coulnd't feel a thing the first time.
7. And then am I freaking freezing because I slept with open window.
So yeah, that's it. Right now am I smoking a cigarette and thinking about taking a bath. I went to sleep at 5 am yesterday and got up at 11.30. So I'm feeling a little dead. That's what you're going to get for now. I promise I'll start posting more again (even though noone's reading it anyway)........ but it's kinda funny.
cya suckerzzz <3

So the holidays are over and school started up again. I've had quite a depressing vacation, so I'm actually thrilled it's over. I've had some good days though. Last friday I went to moderator-day. We were 12 moderators (out of like 32 or something) but it was really nice.. Olivia, Anmar, Sarah, Louise and Thea were there and we had the best time. It's been a really long time since I laughed that much. We started at watAgame's office and then went to tivoli. There were sooooooo many people, but it was ok.
Hmm, I started these holidays at our house in Sweden. We were there from friday to thuesday, were we went home because we fought too much. Not good. Then I was home for like one day and then I got thrown back at Egholt because my mother just couldn't stand being with me anymore. She said she never wanted to see me again and was just generally very dramatic.. So I went to Egholt and got way to drunk, made out with one of the other girls and then went alone out in the dark after more alcohol. Ended up laying in the grass, not capable of standing straight. Some man picked me up and drove me back at Egholt, were I got to sleep. So that was pretty stupid..
Oh wel.. Hope you all had a nice vacation.

School again

So I started school up again. It's not quite as amazing as I hoped it would be, but I think I just need to give it some time. I'm pretty much left to myself and I don't know what I am supposed to do. But I think it will get better after some time. I went to the horseriding class today, I wasn't allowed to ride because I don't got the proper clothes and bla bla bla, but it was okay just to look anyway. I'm going to try it after the holidays.
I'm going to our house in Sweden with my family. I'm really looking forward to that. It will be greao get a little away from this mess.
Oh and then I moved in at Egholt. The people here are all very nice to me. So that's just great.. I don't know what else to say. Bye :)

Birthday

So I celebrated my birthday with a couple of friends last night. It went really well. We played singstar, watched horror movies, ate and talked. I only purged once, after eating cake. So that's ok.
Anmar stayed and slept at my place. We had a really great time and I laughed a lot. It's been a while.
Now I'm just sitting in my bed, starving (and actually kind of loving the feeling), listening to some music. I just bought last.fm subscription - that's amazing. It's not much, just 3 bucks a month and now I can listen to a whole bunch of artist, that's amazing<3
I'm just kinda sad because I just realized how little of a life I actually got. I never get invited to partys and I have no friends to go to concerts with. I do have friends, but I've asked everyone and noone wants to go with me. That sucks, because I really want to go to a concert. So now I've found some internetfriends and are planning on going to a Dúné concert with them.. My dad isn't too happy about it, but he says that if Egholt is okay about it, he will be too. So we're calling them first thing in the morning, asking if it's okay. I'm crossing everything I can possibly cross.
Hmm, I don't think I have more to say. Bye people.

I don't know what to do

I'm so scared right now. I don't know what to do. I woke up this morning, my father gone. And I don't know when he will come home. I can't take any pn medication, because my father hid the key. I'm just so anxious and terrified. I just wish he would come home. I'm sitting, banging my head into the wall. I don't know what to do.